Despite the build up, excitement and prayers, I have lost in another round of IVF. Cycle number 8 like every other cycle beforehand failed. We have now used the last of our frozen embryos. This means that I will be doing yet another IVF cycle which I will aim to do before Christmas.
Christmas is probably not the most ideal time to conceive, but it becomes a financial consideration. If I can get one more round of IVF before the end of the year then I will be eligible to get a higher level of rebate back from Medicare. Trust me, after eight rounds of IVF your finances do wear pretty thin.
Surprisingly I am not upset this time around. Maybe I felt that that since our other 4 frozen embryos no good, then this one wouldn’t be much chop either. I think my conclusion is that it was a bad batch! It’s big turn around from last time as the last few times was absolutely devastating. This time I have only experienced mild disappointment. Maybe I am starting to believe that I will never experience motherhood. On the flip side I am not totally ready to give up either. Here’s to another round! Any takers.